What it's like to be back

I really didn’t want to leave Japan because I was reading so much about the current political climate in America and to be honest it scared me. Even though the rest of the world started seeing America in a better light because of President Obama, some crazies with microphones began equating Obama to Hitler. Now I am in America, looking for a job in one of the worst hit states in America. We have been here for exactly two weeks and I still feel like I don’t belong here or have not settled back in. I feel like I am floating around unable to focus on life here. In the two weeks I’ve had several panic attacks and a few reunions with friends. I feel that as much as I am happy to see my friends, I am unable to enjoy them as I would if I didn’t have stress blocking me from letting go and enjoying myself.
I enjoy reading and hearing current events, but lately staying informed is more distressing than ever. There is a lot of disinformation going on right now. Many people are using health care reform as an excuse to attack President Obama. The things I’ve been hearing are beyond ridiculous and the rebuttal from the left has been weak to say the least. It is disheartening to see that people cannot put aside their pettiness for the greater good of the nation. Having a civilized discussion about health care reform is what America needs, not these petty protests of intimidation and utter nonsense.
Right now the only reason I am typing and not in fetal position on my bed is due to the support of my parents. They are telling me to keep calm and that they have confidence that I will find something good in time. I also have the support of a wonderful man who is super patient and tries to comfort me when I am inconsolable.